after a few minutes….
Wednesday, September 26, 2007STILL NOT HAPPY…
*aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ………………"
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survey, survey, survey
Tuesday, September 25, 20071. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
- Oprah Winfrey saying she'll adopt me :p *oprah hug*
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
- I don't think you're actually supposed to do that.
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
- Hahahaha… Why not?!
4. Do you take compliments well?
- I should hope so..
5. Do you play Sudoku?
- Yep. I'm actually crazy about them
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
- Alone? I doubt it.
7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
- Probably clothes
8. Who was the last person you slept in bed with?
- Can i plead the fifth?
**Uhm, pervs, we literally just SLEPT.
9. Who do you text the most?
- Recently, it's Adrien
10. Favorite childrens book?
- Cinderella *hands down*
Least Complicated
Thursday, September 20, 2007I just feel like posting 
LEAST COMPLICATED
Indigo Girls
I sit two stories above the street
Its awful quiet here since love fell asleep
Theres life down below me though
The kids are walking home from schoolSome long ago when we were taught
That for whatever kind of puzzle you got
You just stick the right formula in
A solution for every foolI remember the time when I came so close to you
Sent me skipping my class and running from school
And I bought you that ring cause I never was cool
What makes me think I could start clean slated
The hardest to learn was the least complicatedSo I just sit up in the house and resist
And not be seen until I cease to exist
A kind of conscientious objection
A kind of dodging the draftThe boy and girl are holding hands on the street
And I dont want to but I think you just wait
Its more than just eye to eye
Learn the things I could never applyI remember the time when I came so close with you
I let everything go it seemed the only truth
And I bought you that ring, it seemed the thing to doWhat makes me think I could start clean slated
The hardest to learn was the least complicated
So what makes me think I could start clean slated
The hardest to learn was the least complicatedIm just a mirror of a mirror myself
All the things that I do
And the next time I fall Im gonna have to recall
Its isnt love its only something newI sit two stories above the street
Its awful quiet here since love fell asleep
Theres life down below me though
The kids are walking home from schoolIm remember the time when I came so close with you
Sent me skipping my class and running from school
And I bought you that ring cause I never was coolWhat makes me think I could start clean slated
The hardest to learn was the least complicated
So what makes me think I could start clean slated
The hardest to learn was the least complicated
The least complicated
The least complicated
caution: low hanging warning sign
"This isn't pain I'm feeling, it's nostalgia."
- Ally McBeal
PICTURE THIS: you're walking down the street, listening to your music and minding your own business when suddenly, you hit your head on one of those parking signs, would you ever let the happen again the moment you take the same route home the next day? logical answer would probably (or definitely) be, NO, because that would be just plain stupid. But honestly, between you and me, half of the world is stupid and they're just bound to commit the same mistake over and over again despite the warning signs. There may even be some people who would accidentally hit their heads on a sign that is warning about the low hanging warning sign. and as much as I hate to admit it, I AM ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE.
Here's the thing. I've been here before, I tried to move on and I'm right back where I started. Funny thing is, I can't seem to blame myself for going back. For all we know, I have probably adapted to this kind of environment that it's almost like oxygen. Yes, I knew exactly what I was setting myself to do and yet I did it anyway. I knew the consequences, I even knew what the outcome would be and yet I keep on doing it over and over again. And as I look back at the past couple of years, I can't help but wonder, have I been building myself up in certain situations even after knowing it would result to nothing? Have I been setting myself to fail? Or better yet, am I emotionally masochistic?
I've been watching a lot of Ally McBeal these past few days and I remember her saying, "Even if I get past all my problems, I'm just going to go out and get new ones." Now, what if I'm wired that way? What I'm all for drama that I pave my own way to self-destruction? It's actually quite hard to think that I'm not because every time I see the skies clearing up, it seems like all that I can do is go where the rain clouds are headed. Once is normal. Twice is a pattern. But three times (or more), i think you start classifying it as a habit! Worst part, I know exactly what's happening and yet I choose not to do anything about it.
I've tried all sorts of things, but I keep coming back. Quoting Meredith Grey, "Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop."
Meticulous to the bone paying attention to the nitty-gritty details of anything (or anyone) that piques his interest. He's terribly O.C. when he feels like it and other times he just leaves the mess as it is.
