deja vu all over again
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
just when i thought i had actually out-grown it, it seems like i'm even farther from where i started.
i'd like to believe that everyone goes through it either when people turn 18 or hit the big 2-0. i know i did. it was a really tough time for me that i even labeled october 9 as my death day anniversary and never in my life have i been more destructive. the year was 2004.
i never thought i'd be one of those people who would suffer severely from Peter Pan syndrome. i didn't want to grow up and i still don't. and every year, since that fateful event, i would always be late for work (or i wouldn't go to work at all), i wouldn't mind if my room looks like little Payatas, i would be a total biatch to everyone (not to mention, extra crappy) and i would hangout at Starbucks, or at the cinema, or anywhere alone. for three consecutive years, i would always sink into the lowest of lows every third quarter of the year that i thought 2006 would be the last. and just when i thought i had actually out-grown the fantasy of being a kid forever, it seems like i'm even farther from where i started.
i was just watching "Georgia Rule" (Lindsay Lohan, Felicity Huffman, and Jane Fonda) the other day and i haven't stopped thinking about it since then. euphemistically speaking, Rachel (Lindsay Lohan) is a free-spirit. truth is, she's a lost soul trying to find her way home. i remember her saying that she doesn't really care about the sex but what she really wants is to be held. and maybe that's exactly what the world needs - to be held (or touched) - so we can finally say that we are, indeed, home. but then again, maybe it's just me…
Meticulous to the bone paying attention to the nitty-gritty details of anything (or anyone) that piques his interest. He's terribly O.C. when he feels like it and other times he just leaves the mess as it is.
