in retrospect… [first of two parts]

next week marks my supposedly second anniversary at PS. and weird enough, my desk is facing Philamlife Tower which is where lots of memories and friendships have been built over ciggies and cups of coffee. i can even see the very same spot where i used to take my early taho and yosi breaks from where i’m sitting and looking back, i started to realize that all that happened during the past two years was that i grew older but not even a bit wiser.

lets talk finances first. i have gone from newbie, to vet agent and, now [with a different company], to subject matter expert. my annual income has certainly increased over time. from regularization, to annual appraisals, to moving from one company to another, i am earning more than what i was getting when i started working back in 2004. ironically, though, it seems like i owe more money now than i did two years ago. i actually envy people who are getting an above minimum salary stipulated by the Department of Labor. i wonder how it’s possible for them to start a family, put kids to school and, somehow, still save up for a rainy day. i mean, how the hell do they do that?! does it have to do with the fact that i’m single and, somehow, still young to think of settling down? of does it have to do with the lifestyle that i’ve been accustomed to? i don’t know.

now, let’s talk politics. i may not know much about government politics but i know a great deal about manipulation, back-stabbing, and deception. high school and college equipped me with all the tools needed before to survive the real world. and just when i thought that i have everything, it seems as if i had nothing. it turns out that you need to have more than a couple of tricks up your sleeve in order to get out alive. i find it ironic that the very same people you trust are the very same poeple who will take you six feet under. and i started to realize that you can’t really trust anyone you meet in the urban jungle. people may seem meek as a lamb, but the truth is, they’re nothing more than wolves in sheep’s clothing. oh well, so much for survival.

 to be continued…