quiz.. quiz.. quiz..

If there's one thing that i LOVE - LOVE - LOVE  about my job, it's downtime. You go to work for eight hours and you're pretty much allowed to do anything you want. Some of the guys are actually in the conference room watching a gangster movie while, some are sleeping, and the rest are surfing the net to their hearts content.

As for me,  I chose to answer online quizzes. I came across this website that has a wide variety of quizzes ranging from "what's your inner blood type" to "what is your seduction style?" REALLY interesting. Here are some of the ones i answered. Check them out, they're really fun!!

WHO WERE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?

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In high school, everyone knew your name - even if you didn't know theirs. In fact, your still skating by on your looks and charm. Nothing wrong with that!

 
Who Were You In High School?
 
 
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forgiven, not forgotten

It was a tedious Tuesday morning with nothing to do but organize files, convert WMA files to mp3 and remove post-due reminders on my corkboard. And after doing all that, I was pretty much left with nothing else to do. And what's the best way to kill time - answer survey questions on Friendster.

So there i was, browsing through different surveys when I came across this questionnaire about ex's, partners, and crushes. And one of the questions was "What will you do if you caught your partner with someone else in bed?" For some weird reason, it suddenly reminded me of Drew Barrymore in Ever After saying these words to Anjelica Houston -

"I want you to know that I will forget you after this moment and never think of you again. But I am quite certain that you will think about me every single day for the rest of your life…" 

As far as "Danielle" is concerned, she was giving the baroness forgiveness. But the truth is, her act was done more out of spite rather than kindness. It actually seemed like the perfect way to end Cinderella's relationship with her evil step-mother but it got me thinking, is there truth in it? Is it really possible to forget those people who've wronged us and never think of them ever again? Or better yet, is it possible to forgive and forget?

Now, forgiving and forgetting are two distinct things. To forgive is to let go of resentment towards a certain offender. Forgetting, on the other hand, is to cease remembering or noticing. and to treating certain instances as if they never happened just doesn't seem right - first, because IT DID HAPPEN and there's absolutely no turning back; second, because these things happen for a reason; and third, we should consider these occurrences as life's way of teaching us how to live and, hopefully, survive. It's a matter of learning from experiences that we go through and making sure that we stand up after we fall and never stumble again. So, granting that it is POSSIBLE, should we forgive and forget?

I know I’ve had moments where I’ve bumped uglies with strangers, colleagues, and even good friends. And I don’t know about you but I never forget. Do I forgive? Yes, but I never forget because whether you like it or not, people are going to screw you over one way or another. And it’s through these experiences that we learn who to trust and believe. At the same time, it’s an opportunity to gauge and filter real people and real friends.

Am I bitter? Not really. I’ve probably just grown wiser. So, a few words from the wise: Forgive, but never forget! And most importantly, LEARN, and never be a fool again.

in retrospect… [second of two parts]

after dealing with career and finances, let’s talk about the “L” word [and just so we’re clear, i’m talkin about love, not lesbian]. anyhoo.. the last time i was in a relationship was back in college and it wasn’t even a real relationship. it was nothing more but countless SMSs, random dates and drunken mistakes. after that, i went on hiatus. now, two years later, i realize that it was such a wrong decision. no regrets, though… ok, fine! i regret it - A LOT!! and now that i’m ready, there seems to be a scarcity of available men in the market. or is it because i set my standard too high. i mean, i could drop it down a notch but that wouldn’t be fair - both for me and for the guy. it would be like settling for less even though i know i could get more (talk about conceited)! but try asking me again in, like, 5 years time.. we’ll see.

now, the tricky part when it comes to love is that someone ends up getting hurt. and sadly, that person would be me. the thing is, i’ve tried to working on this department for almost 10 years now and somehow, i never learn. i remember the sleepover my bestfriend and i had a couple of weeks ago and we realized that we haven’t changed (even a bit) over the years. we keep on setting ourselves up just to end up in the dump. i have had my share. and no matter how hard i try not to fall, i end up plunging in, head first, knowing that the ravine is not bottomless and sooner or later, i’m bound to end up broken, yet again, from the fall.

life has been crazy over the past two years. do i consider it a milestone? not yet. maybe in three more years when i find that which i have yet to prove. for now, i’ll try to embrace life as i know it. and for all the things that are yet to happen, i say, “bring it!!”

in retrospect… [first of two parts]

next week marks my supposedly second anniversary at PS. and weird enough, my desk is facing Philamlife Tower which is where lots of memories and friendships have been built over ciggies and cups of coffee. i can even see the very same spot where i used to take my early taho and yosi breaks from where i’m sitting and looking back, i started to realize that all that happened during the past two years was that i grew older but not even a bit wiser.

lets talk finances first. i have gone from newbie, to vet agent and, now [with a different company], to subject matter expert. my annual income has certainly increased over time. from regularization, to annual appraisals, to moving from one company to another, i am earning more than what i was getting when i started working back in 2004. ironically, though, it seems like i owe more money now than i did two years ago. i actually envy people who are getting an above minimum salary stipulated by the Department of Labor. i wonder how it’s possible for them to start a family, put kids to school and, somehow, still save up for a rainy day. i mean, how the hell do they do that?! does it have to do with the fact that i’m single and, somehow, still young to think of settling down? of does it have to do with the lifestyle that i’ve been accustomed to? i don’t know.

now, let’s talk politics. i may not know much about government politics but i know a great deal about manipulation, back-stabbing, and deception. high school and college equipped me with all the tools needed before to survive the real world. and just when i thought that i have everything, it seems as if i had nothing. it turns out that you need to have more than a couple of tricks up your sleeve in order to get out alive. i find it ironic that the very same people you trust are the very same poeple who will take you six feet under. and i started to realize that you can’t really trust anyone you meet in the urban jungle. people may seem meek as a lamb, but the truth is, they’re nothing more than wolves in sheep’s clothing. oh well, so much for survival.

 to be continued…

randomrants

if there’s one thing that gets me though the day, it would have to be ciay’s text messages (thanks to globe’s unlimitxt service… hehehe.. :p) they’re really nothing but forwarded messages but the thing is, they actually make sense. and i’d sometimes, i even like to see them as God’s means of communicating by means of technology.

I know, it doesn’t really sound like me to talk “God-speak” but the thing is, whenever i feel down, one way or another, i’m gonna receive a message which exactly expresses how i feel. they also tend to answer certain questions i tend to ask like a magic 8 ball coming out of no where. weird, huh?!

anyhoo.. i don’t know what it is but i’ve been watching a lot of romantic flicks recently. my weekend was filled with chick flicks like the cutting edge, you’ve got mail, the wedding singer and never been kissed. this is quite similar to the time that i was engrossed with old movies/musicals such as an affair to remember, all about eve, wizard of oz and the sound of music (well, to name a few). could it be my incessant need for drama that drove me? to be honest, i don’t know and i don’t really wanna know.

now let’s talk work! the multicultural study that we’ve been working on for over a month now just came to an end. [and] to be honest, i don’t think i’m ever gonna miss it. okay, maybe just a bit but i really couldn’t care any less. new projects are on their way and i simply can’t wait. but until then, all i gotta do is sit back, relax and enjoy listening to good music.