hot triple grande irish cream half-decaf foamy caramel macchiato

as the cliche goes, to each his own. we all have our own beliefs, our own sense of style, and yes, our own quirks and zaniness, and yes, our own comfort foods. i know it’s way to early to be thinking about food but, hey, i work in a contact center so i guess i’m exempted.. hehe..

 i don’t know why, exactly, but lately, i have had this feeling that something’s wrong. everything seems perfectly normal but something’s definitely not right and i can’t really put my finger to it. i’ve been having these weird vibes ever since i got back to work after the holidays. post-holiday depression?! could be.. or is it possible that i’m just questioning the “system” since everything turned out fine.

i was really bummed during the first three hours of my shift and as much as i want to conduct telephone interviews (after all, this is what the company pays me to do), i can’t since there are no records available.  so what i did was read CHARMED episode spoilers, update my gmail address book, write testimonials on friendster, organize my desk, jazz up my planner and look up information on the resumption of Canadian citizenship (long story). And as preoccupied i was, as it seemed, it still wasn’t enough to kick the boredom out of me. so, during my first break, i immediately went to starbucks valero to get a triple grande irish cream half-decaf foamy caramel macchiato.

when i got back, i decided to write an entry on my comfort food, or rather, drink. And then it suddenly dawned on me - i’m no different from it or better yet, my life is no different from it.

now, what it’s basic form, really? it’s just a grande caramel macchiato - two shots of espresso, vanilla syrup, caramel syrup, steamed milk and caramel drizzle. but to make it a bit more interesting, what i did was add an espresso shot, irish cream syrup, and made it foamy and half-decaf. i could have opted for two shots and left it as is and it would have had the same caffeine jolt that i was looking for. but instead, i had to add an espresso shot for a stronger coffee taste and had 50% of it’s stimulant substance just so that i wouldn’t suffer from hyperventilation due to caffeine overdose. i could have also just left the foam to it’s regular state but instead, i had to make it foamy because i love the way the caramel drizzle clings to it. complicated?! not really.. seems like it though, huh?!

i guess my point is that whenever we get what we want or whenever what we want is already there, we can’t help but ask for more. i mean, it’s already there, right in front of us, but all we do is could we just dismiss wanting more as “human nature”? perhaps.. i just can’t help but wonder, why do we keep on wanting more when everything is already provided for us. it’s not like we really need that extra shot or extra syrup. but we do not because of anything else but simply because we want to..